There's a lot to say and nothing to say at all.
I've been very full of doubt as of late - mostly about my writing, which is frankly nothing new but lately it has been more tiring than usual.
I'm tired of having no confidence about it. I'm tired of thinking it's all no good and looking for reassurances. I want to do
something about it, but I don't exactly know what to do other than to just solider through it. So, there's that.
I think a lot of it boils down to the fact that I feel like other people are far more confidant about what they produce and I'm just jealous. I wish they bottled things that would stabilized my emotions and make me better. I want a pint of self confidence, a couple pills of intelligence, and a good spoonful of not-caring-what-other-people-think-to-a-c
ertain-degree-if-you-know-what-I-mean. (And now I win for longest joined words EVER!) I am quite sure loads of people feel this way and I'm just being *~*emotional*~* and later I'll get over it but as of late it's been trying and - as stated earlier - tiring
And I know there is some claptrap about how self-improvement can only come from yourself or something and it's not that I don't have the motivation for that, so much as I don't know where to start. Not to mention that the more dry parts of my personality are in complete protest at the 'huggy, Disneyesque you're special, believe it!' message.
Ehhhhh - it's just one of those things.
I'm basically posting this to get it out of me, as it's been sitting on my chest a long time and I simply need to toss it off, if that makes sense.
LET'S MAKE UP FOR THE BLAHNESS OF THE POST WITH SOMETHING COOL, EH?
I love finding gorgeous photography. I have a whole folder on my computer dedicated to it. Wouldn't it be amazing to be in a room like that?